This will be a continuous post detailing my experience at work here near mile high city (or just a high city now that marijuana is legal).
It's quite a shock transitioning out of grad school into the corporate world. I missed all the intellectual discussions I had with my professor where we could disagree and yet remain friends, so far not a single intellectual discussion. And my bosses are not really willing to listen to my opinions, why should they?
Also, at work, people seem to do a lot more powerplay/powertripping, whatever you want to call it. No more do I have the chance to discuss as to why we should do things a certain way, it's all up to whoever is on top, "Thus saith the boss", we never question why we do the things we do the way we do it anymore. The money is good, but I don't think I'm happy ...
Then again, in school, your goal is to understand things, at work, "SHOW ME THE MONEY" is the only mantra. Due to this philosophy, I am assigned whatever work needs to be done and in turn I don't accumulate and hone specific skills, well how can you if you work on thirty different things in three months (okay maybe not that many, the numbers are there for illustration purposes).
I guess I can now see the extent of human selfishness, everyone is just trying to cover their own behind and if you're just a new peon you'll need to suffer a little bit more. People do stuffs just to show that they're doing something rather than to produce something meaningful and I'm dragged into it because whoever is on top wants to do exactly that. It's emotionally draining, I long to see kindness again, where people are not out just to make their own gain but spare some thoughts for others as well.
We'll see ...
I think the only thing I can do is to change my expectations and perspective on work since obviously I can't change others. I shouldn't expect myself to enjoy it or be able to voice my opinions, their goal is not to make me happy or accommodate me or even use my talents or bring the best out of me, their goal is to get the product shipped and nothing else. The only thing I can get out of this is money and connections, so let's find ways to make more money ...........
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